I used to be confident, sweet and slow to anger… I’m not to sure what happened to that me. It doesn’t feel like it was that long ago that I was that past me, that better person. Maybe who I was just seems better to me in hindsight. Maybe I was never that good. Either way I’ve improved myself a lot, but in doing so I’ve lost many key points that had made me, me. I’ve said, done things, and acted in ways I “never would”. I don’t know the future and so I can not act based on a fear of what it might hold. The past is unchangeable and the future is unknowable there for the only time of consequents is this moment, the one where life is accruing where choices are made, things are done or not done with reasons and intentions that inevitably create what happens next. I need to really start trying harder to make the right choices and when I don’t, I cant dwell on my mistakes regretting and wondering what if. I need to accept what I have done and focus on making the best of any outcome. I’ll keep working on me and maybe one day I’ll be a person I can be proud of.
